January 2010
48 posts
maddie fattie pattie’s blog.
this is ceara.
SAM AND I ARE SQUIRRELY.
eeek.
It’s done, I just put down the $500 deposit for my San Francisco program. No backing out now. It makes me nervous. I can’t spend any money. At all. And I have to make a ton of money. I will work it out, I know I will. It’s just thinking about how to fuck I’m going to pay for college. Thats freaky.
go ahead, ill be your junkie.
Maybe I’m just having a grumpy day. But I’ve been second guessing a lot of things today. I just sorta have a weird feeling about it. Like something will go bad. You’re just kind of an idiot. And it pisses me off. I thought it would be easier because you’re so relaxed and chill, but it’s sort of just annoying.
askhfkshgsklh grumble grumble grumble. That just says it...
I just did five sections on math homework and my Econ paper. Now I have to read Huck Finn and The Bean Trees. I also have a cold and a headache. I’m grumpy.
“This is how it works
You’re young until you’re not
You love until...”
– Regina Spektor- On the Radio
i am irked.
“An eye for an eye only ends up making the whole world blind.”
– Mohandas Gandhi.
intelligent input, darling.
This week I feel like I haven’t been at school at all, which I guess I kind of havent. I skipped a period each block day. Hmmm.
I think I’m actually somewhat prepared for my math test tomorrow. Logarithms are easier for me to grasp.
My right arch really hurts. I don’t know why. But it’s super frustrating. I’m also getting a scratchy throat. Which is also...
The Nicest Thing- Kate Nash. I’ve been...
Milkman isn’t as good as Girl Talk. Sorry.
thanks.
I’ve finally realized, I’m a better person when your not around. I’m happier when you don’t talk to me. I’d much rather have absence than I told you so’s. When I see you I don’t get butterflies, I don’t feel weak.
I used to always think I’d want you in my life. But I don’t need someone telling me I’m not good enough. I don’t...
i love this show. →
Creator- Santigold
“But as strong as I seem to think I am
My distressing damsel, she comes out at...”
– Ingrid Michaelson- Overboard.
I just got really excited for Winter Formal :)
before i commence;
I will appologize in advance for some of the hostility in this post and how conceded and selfish I may sound, however, it needs to be vented.
If you want to make that choice, it’s cool. Choose them I don’t give a shit. But honestly if you’re actually going to make that choice then I am just going to kindly tell you to fuck off. Because I’m not dealing with that fucking...
hello inspire.
Project Runway inspires me so much. It just makes me yearn to be there, to work hard to get that type of opportunity. I have been looking for some inspiration. And I found it. I love it.
Crazy.
megvan:
I can’t wait to go get fishies tomorrow!! Maddie and Sammie and Leel. Woop woop! B@d B0yZZ c1uBB! H0L1@?
yay! b@d B)yZz c1uBB 4 l!f3!
welcome to the bad boys club.
Today I fucking pwned at Parking Lot 3. Such a good way to start of the day.
Tomorrow I’m going to the doctor to figure out what the hell this mark is on my face.
Friday I have a swim meet.
Saturday I have a costume clean out all day. And laser tag with the swim team.
Of course I still sweat you, but honestly you look like you’re balding. And I don’t really like old men.
“The answer is good things only happen to you if you’re good. Good? Honest is...”
– Truman Capote: Breakfast at Tiffany’s (via chocolate-cigarettes)
“When you say ‘beer can’ in a British accent, you are also saying...”
– Stumbled.
YOURE NOT BEST FRIENDS.
as austin lister would say, imma fucking beat your ghetto ass.
I just successfully ran down to Katys house, picked up tights and had a secret meeting all in my cozy night gown with both of our households fast asleep. I fucking love having one of my best friends also be my neighbor. Its super convenient for secret meetings.
I’ve talked to Ashley Lister on the phone three times today…..
you are the thunder and i am the lighting.
I love going grocery shopping with my mom every Sunday. I always do lunges in the store with the shopping cart so I embarass her. And I always steal those butter toffee candies. I bought mushrooms today, and we had a nice little talk about shrooms. Shes done them before, but not enough of them to get completely fucked up. She said they were really nasty and she felt sick.
I also bought a thing...
People fuck up. But do you fuck up, or are you a fuck up?
I don’t want to go past the point of no return. So maybe I should just stop now. Staying away might be a good choice.
you can quote me on that.
The amount of stress and tension that has accumulated in my household from the past few weeks has begun to rub off on me.
I feel like I need to help him, but I don’t know how. He’s stressing out the entire family without even realizing it. All he does is fight with my dad trying to get him to move out and then he will fight with my mom because she doesn’t let him play Xbox. And...
I hate it, but sometimes. I just need you to be there. You’re never there when I need you. And I miss when you used to be.
you loveliness goes on an on.
Today was another good day. So far, 2010 has been full of good days. This makes me ecstatic.
I am still not done with The Poison Wood Bible, but I honestly really really like it. And the next one Im reading, the Bean Trees is a lot shorter. So I shall be fine on time.
I feel like things are heading in a good direction, lunch friday then hanging out saturday? Sounds good to me.
I am actually...
that made me melt a little bit.
a brand new decade.
It’s hard to put my finger on exactly the amount of things I’ve learned this year. I’ve discovered many things about myself, other people, how to deal with situations and not to run away from your problems. I’ve watched people become people so far from who they really are. I’ve changed in ways I’m proud of, and some ways I’m not. I’ve watched people...
“I played with one of my balls a couple of weeks ago to make it weigh more, but...”
– Cooper Gates.
oh wait, i found it. →
